Need- defined as the fact or an instance of feeling the lack of something . Try to think of the word first. To be frank, it took me 2 days,to be exact, to finally, made up this blog. Within those moments, deep thoughts was made by me.
Yesterday, 5th of July, a strong rain hit the city. Umbrellas were open, everyone was rushing, and all is probably, wet. I,walking in the rain, holding my pink umbrella, pink bag, and my pink envelope, suddenly, thought about that "certain person". What was I thinking? Of all people, you're memories appeared in my active mind. Well, I admit, during that time, an action of that "certain person", slowly teared my heart. I didn't knew why. Why am I always affected by you? Several questions revolves in my mind, about you "certain person". I always say to myself, I wanna LET GO!, but why can't I?
The minute I stepped inside a public utility vehicle, I first settled my self. As I look at the rain, I remembered you; those words you said, 30 minutes before. Why have you said those things to me, "certain person"? You made me think that my decision was wrong. And by that time,I finally arrived with something. Something like, a CONCLUSION.
That "certain person", only remembers a person like me, when he needs me. It hurts; but just like a teacher of mine said, TRUTH HURTS; BUT TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE. I wanna be free, "certain person", I wanna let go. I'm tired; I've tried; I'm confused; and I'm hurt. I wanna save myself by getting fooled by a person like you. Stop it already, I get it.
I NEED YOU, YOU NEED ME.
But you're definition of need, IS TOTALLY MISTAKEN.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
I Am About To ...
What just happened,? I have no clue on what's going on. I may be thinking deeper, but i am thinking straight. I'll go directly to the point, what happened to you, "certain person"??. You magically turned to a person I hated the most. WHO ARE YOU?!, Just to be clear, I don't even know who you are anymore.
These past few weeks, I thought that you didn't changed, and for that moment I was content; but it turns out, I was completely MISTAKEN. You changed into a person that I didn't expected. I admit, I was disappointed; deeply disappointed. I don't even know what to write anymore, because of this feeling that i don't understand. I'm angry, mad, furious, but I feel like, why am I still feeling this way even though you changed? I don't understand anymore.
WOW! I wanna scream, and let this all out! I've had enough, "certain person"! For several moments, I wanted to let go, and why can't I? You're like something that i have never had before. I never acted this way, but then you, you, "certain person', came into my life.
You made me cry about you for 3 times already; but it wasn't about the "Four-Letter-Word", it was about something else. You made me a person who can think positively and realize that not everything in life, is about fantasy. Why'd you do this to me?
After a year, I'm still feeling the same way. I don't anything anymore. I always deny you, but deep inside, you are Undeniably true. I just wanna let you know, I know, one day, this will all be over. And i have been ready for that day; but for now; i hope, you'll realize, that the "certain person" I see now, is not the "certain person" I have known.
These past few weeks, I thought that you didn't changed, and for that moment I was content; but it turns out, I was completely MISTAKEN. You changed into a person that I didn't expected. I admit, I was disappointed; deeply disappointed. I don't even know what to write anymore, because of this feeling that i don't understand. I'm angry, mad, furious, but I feel like, why am I still feeling this way even though you changed? I don't understand anymore.
WOW! I wanna scream, and let this all out! I've had enough, "certain person"! For several moments, I wanted to let go, and why can't I? You're like something that i have never had before. I never acted this way, but then you, you, "certain person', came into my life.
You made me cry about you for 3 times already; but it wasn't about the "Four-Letter-Word", it was about something else. You made me a person who can think positively and realize that not everything in life, is about fantasy. Why'd you do this to me?
After a year, I'm still feeling the same way. I don't anything anymore. I always deny you, but deep inside, you are Undeniably true. I just wanna let you know, I know, one day, this will all be over. And i have been ready for that day; but for now; i hope, you'll realize, that the "certain person" I see now, is not the "certain person" I have known.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Another Step to the F.I.N.A.L.E
It's been so long already. Within those weeks, I have made the most difficult decision that I've had in my entire life; letting go of that "certain person". I have said that before, yes i did, but now, it's different. Who are you "Certain Person"? Why did you do this to me? Every night, before I faithfully close my eyes and go to my dreamland, I think about you; but why? Are you really that amazing?!; if you're Reading this "certain person", you would know the answer.
This isn't my last blog, that's my promise to all my readers and followers. I will not stop making blogs just because that "certain person"already vanished from my life; NO, i won't. "Certain person", you're just a character that my wild imaginations created, indeed, you are. I never regretted the day that I met you, but I swear, i will never forget the day that I've let you go; and that day is TODAY.
Please, I will not cry for several nights, but I will only drop one tear for that "certain person"; one tear, is what he deserves. In each day that we'll meet, I won't ignore you. if you need me, I'll be there, for I know, at times that I need you, you were there. When you come near me, I will treat like a friend of mine, wanting to talk, but not as "certain person".
End- is the word I hate. But i realized that, if I won't end this; my life would be ruined. I tried to deny that I fell for a person like you, i did, but I am more than willing to lie to myself, than ruin my life. I admit, you changed me, "certain person". Thank you for all the moments that we shared together, sorry for i left you once, and once and for all, GOODBYE, is the last word you'll hear from me, as the girl who fell in love with you.
This isn't my last blog, that's my promise to all my readers and followers. I will not stop making blogs just because that "certain person"already vanished from my life; NO, i won't. "Certain person", you're just a character that my wild imaginations created, indeed, you are. I never regretted the day that I met you, but I swear, i will never forget the day that I've let you go; and that day is TODAY.
Please, I will not cry for several nights, but I will only drop one tear for that "certain person"; one tear, is what he deserves. In each day that we'll meet, I won't ignore you. if you need me, I'll be there, for I know, at times that I need you, you were there. When you come near me, I will treat like a friend of mine, wanting to talk, but not as "certain person".
End- is the word I hate. But i realized that, if I won't end this; my life would be ruined. I tried to deny that I fell for a person like you, i did, but I am more than willing to lie to myself, than ruin my life. I admit, you changed me, "certain person". Thank you for all the moments that we shared together, sorry for i left you once, and once and for all, GOODBYE, is the last word you'll hear from me, as the girl who fell in love with you.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
I Will Never Let You GO.....
Just a few days ago, something heart-breaking happened, for the "certain person" and for the person who, he thought that would complete his life as a "nearly perfect person". For all of you reading this blog, you already know what that is, refer to the first 8-10 words stated. For the "certain person", it might hurt and for "her" would seem like, "she" lost a "certain person" in her life, a "certain person" she truly ______; it's up to you, on what word you're going to place on the blank portion. Of course, it would hurt. But, after this sort of happening, we must learn to move on and realize that we have to forgive and forget.
My current tweet states, "Never regretted the day that I've met you, but always regretted the day that I've let you go"; to "her", she would, probably say that to to the person which she considers "her", "certain person". But, this blog is written especially for "her". To "her", I would sadly say that, ____ is always like that; it sometimes completes your broken soul, but sometimes it breaks your heart; now, we really need to face the truth; it ended, but I know, that your feelings for your "certain person" will never, ever VANISH.
Finally, to "her", this is just the beginning, of your colorful life, full of joy and ____. I know, no matter what happens, you will forever say to your "certain person" that, "I Will Never Let You Go".....
My current tweet states, "Never regretted the day that I've met you, but always regretted the day that I've let you go"; to "her", she would, probably say that to to the person which she considers "her", "certain person". But, this blog is written especially for "her". To "her", I would sadly say that, ____ is always like that; it sometimes completes your broken soul, but sometimes it breaks your heart; now, we really need to face the truth; it ended, but I know, that your feelings for your "certain person" will never, ever VANISH.
Finally, to "her", this is just the beginning, of your colorful life, full of joy and ____. I know, no matter what happens, you will forever say to your "certain person" that, "I Will Never Let You Go".....
Sunday, March 6, 2011
"C.R.Y"
CRY. A "three-letter-word". A person can be clearly described crying if he/she shed tears. But, I'll get straight to the point, why do we cry?
Just last night, I cried. Why? There was one reason, and one reason only, why I cried. Simple. I cried because I realize a mistake I did that can change my life forever. Several weeks ago, I cried thrice because of, the "certain person". For all my friends, who knows the "certain person" is, we can really describe "him" as a person who is clearly near to the "perfect" status. I cried, because of the "certain person", I cried because of you. WHY? Since then, there was one reason only, and that is, INSECURITY. There, I finally said it. I'm insecured. Of course, as a teenager, we can't avoid to feel insecured and sometimes, we even ask ourselves, "Why can't I have that?" You might even start to realize that life can sometimes be unfair. Yes, it is true. But, you "certain person", you always kills me with insecurity. There was even one time, that a classmate of mine asked me, "What's your current wish, (designsbydcd)?"; you know what i said, "To have everything, what the "certain person" has." Simple, frank, and also, confidently said.
To the "certain person", thank you for making me cry, for I believe, "A dream will always start from the first drop of a tear, from the eye of a dreamer."
Just last night, I cried. Why? There was one reason, and one reason only, why I cried. Simple. I cried because I realize a mistake I did that can change my life forever. Several weeks ago, I cried thrice because of, the "certain person". For all my friends, who knows the "certain person" is, we can really describe "him" as a person who is clearly near to the "perfect" status. I cried, because of the "certain person", I cried because of you. WHY? Since then, there was one reason only, and that is, INSECURITY. There, I finally said it. I'm insecured. Of course, as a teenager, we can't avoid to feel insecured and sometimes, we even ask ourselves, "Why can't I have that?" You might even start to realize that life can sometimes be unfair. Yes, it is true. But, you "certain person", you always kills me with insecurity. There was even one time, that a classmate of mine asked me, "What's your current wish, (designsbydcd)?"; you know what i said, "To have everything, what the "certain person" has." Simple, frank, and also, confidently said.
To the "certain person", thank you for making me cry, for I believe, "A dream will always start from the first drop of a tear, from the eye of a dreamer."
Friday, March 4, 2011
The "Four-Letter-Word"
When a person would hear this expression, there is only one thing that comes to their minds. For the person who's reading this, you probably know what that is. It's a word that's difficult to say but easy to express. We feel this "Four-Letter-Word" every second of our lives, it is the reason why we wake up each morning, ready to face the challenges of life. For others, this "Four-Letter-Word" is amazing, but for me, I'm afraid to encounter such thing.
This "Four-Letter-Word" makes me alive, but when this "Four-Letter-Word" comes to my way (literally), it would probably be the start of my hardest trial. To that "certain person", you actually don't know this, but you made me feel this "Four-Letter-Word". For those who are shocked, just try to relax. I'm not really that kind of person who can't control herself; but yes it is true, "HE" made me feel that, especially during the times that he rescues me whenever I'm in trouble.
On my previous blog, I was mad, but, really, life is always like that. One second, you're mad, then the next minute, you'd realize that you are lucky enough to have something worth fighting for; but now, in this blog, i can say that, the "certain person" made me a person who can clearly and wonderfully define, describe and finally, LOVE this "FOUR-LETTER-WORD"............
This "Four-Letter-Word" makes me alive, but when this "Four-Letter-Word" comes to my way (literally), it would probably be the start of my hardest trial. To that "certain person", you actually don't know this, but you made me feel this "Four-Letter-Word". For those who are shocked, just try to relax. I'm not really that kind of person who can't control herself; but yes it is true, "HE" made me feel that, especially during the times that he rescues me whenever I'm in trouble.
On my previous blog, I was mad, but, really, life is always like that. One second, you're mad, then the next minute, you'd realize that you are lucky enough to have something worth fighting for; but now, in this blog, i can say that, the "certain person" made me a person who can clearly and wonderfully define, describe and finally, LOVE this "FOUR-LETTER-WORD"............
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
IT Turns Out "WRONG"......
In the beginning of this blog, I'll be straight. It was just "wrong", capital W, R, O, N, G. "HE", the "certain person" was a BIG mistake. If you were reading this right know, these following words will come out from my mouth and punched in your heart and soul,
" At first, you made feel like an angel, and you, you were my precious wings; Second, you made me realize that anger can be converted with love and courage; Third, you made me a person who can appreciate the beauty of life; and finally you made me a who can define the word 'mistake'."
This might be one of my vicious words that I'm going to say to that "certain person". You had covered a certain part of my heart, which had been holed over this years. I thank you, i hate you, and i _________!
Now, it indeed, turned out WRONG. You, "certain person" is a mistake that filled my heart with one important lesson, the biggest mistake of a person's heart, is to give her entire heart and soul, for the person who doesn't even deserve it; and I'm referring to you, "certain person".
Lastly, thank for making me realize the will of mistakes that made me ____ YOU!!!
" At first, you made feel like an angel, and you, you were my precious wings; Second, you made me realize that anger can be converted with love and courage; Third, you made me a person who can appreciate the beauty of life; and finally you made me a who can define the word 'mistake'."
This might be one of my vicious words that I'm going to say to that "certain person". You had covered a certain part of my heart, which had been holed over this years. I thank you, i hate you, and i _________!
Now, it indeed, turned out WRONG. You, "certain person" is a mistake that filled my heart with one important lesson, the biggest mistake of a person's heart, is to give her entire heart and soul, for the person who doesn't even deserve it; and I'm referring to you, "certain person".
Lastly, thank for making me realize the will of mistakes that made me ____ YOU!!!
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