Thursday, June 16, 2011

I Am About To ...

  What just happened,? I have no clue on what's going on. I may be thinking deeper, but i am thinking straight. I'll go directly to the point, what happened to you, "certain person"??. You magically turned to a person I hated the most. WHO ARE YOU?!, Just to be clear, I don't even know who you are anymore.
   These past few weeks, I thought that you didn't changed, and for that moment I was content; but it turns out, I was completely MISTAKEN. You changed into a person that I didn't expected. I admit, I was disappointed; deeply disappointed. I don't even know what to write anymore, because of this feeling that i don't understand. I'm angry, mad, furious, but I feel like, why am I still feeling this way even though you changed? I don't understand anymore.
 WOW! I wanna scream, and let this all out! I've had enough, "certain person"! For several moments, I wanted to let go, and why can't I? You're like something that i have never had before. I never acted this way, but then you, you, "certain person', came into my life.
  You made me cry about you for 3 times already; but it wasn't about the "Four-Letter-Word", it was about something else. You made me a person who can think positively and realize that not everything in life, is about fantasy. Why'd you do this to me?
  After a year, I'm still feeling the same way. I don't anything anymore. I always deny you, but deep inside, you are Undeniably true. I just wanna let you know, I know, one day, this will all be over. And i have been ready for that day; but for now; i hope, you'll realize, that the "certain person" I see now, is not the "certain person" I have known.
  

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Another Step to the F.I.N.A.L.E

   It's been so long already. Within those weeks, I have made the most difficult decision that I've had in my entire life; letting go of that "certain person". I have said that before, yes i did, but now, it's different. Who are you "Certain Person"? Why did you do this to me? Every night, before I faithfully close my eyes and go to my dreamland, I think about you; but why? Are you really that amazing?!; if you're Reading this "certain person", you would know the answer.
   This isn't my last blog, that's my promise to all my readers and followers. I will not stop making blogs just because that "certain person"already vanished from my life; NO, i won't. "Certain person", you're just a character that my wild imaginations created, indeed, you are. I never regretted the day that I met you, but I swear, i will never forget the day that I've let you go; and that day is TODAY.
   Please, I will not cry for several nights, but I will only drop one tear for that "certain person"; one tear, is what he deserves. In each day that we'll meet, I won't ignore you. if you need me, I'll be there, for I know, at times that I need you, you were there. When you come near me, I will treat like a friend of mine, wanting to talk, but not as "certain person".
   End- is the word I hate. But i realized that, if I won't end this; my life would be ruined. I tried to deny that I fell for a person like you, i did, but I am more than willing to lie to myself, than ruin my life. I admit, you changed me, "certain person". Thank you for all the moments that we shared together, sorry for i left you once, and once and for all, GOODBYE, is the last word you'll hear from me, as the girl who fell in love with you.